9am. One member down. Abandonment. Death. Baby locked away. Childhood wounds. Repentance. Honor. Remembering. Will you open the drawer? Tears, lots of tissues. Welcoming, loving and joining. Grieving together. Not everyone has 12 sessions. Tick, tock. 11am. I’ve got to go. Turn hallway, enter room. Action items, task lists, logistics, strategy, I’ve worked in development for five years, excel sheets, hospitality, you don’t have to prove yourself to anyone. Self-soothe. Self-talk. 12pm. I’ll do this. You do this. I’ll do this. You do this. Good? Yeah. 12:35pm. Calculate, crunch. Don’t forget tips from the end of December. Hi, CeCe. I’m calling in payroll. According to my calculations. Okay, bye. 12:55pm. Can you get me another cup of coffee when you go down there? So, is Pho preferable for lunch left overs? 1:30pm. 17 talking spreadsheets at once. Type, type. Click. This is a good Pandora station. Favorite. Type, type. Research. Organize. Task lists. Be a part of the Volunteer team! 3:45pm. Wait, you’re going up the hill? Can I catch a ride? Click. Turn. Drop purse. Shit. My computer. Are you okay? Tears. Anger. Sadness. Family Guy? Really? You wouldn’t like it. 5pm. 0 emails. Blah blah brief blah blah blah therapy is blah important blah. Church discipline. Shunned. Abandoned. White male power. Tears. Confusion. Anger. Who can I talk to? Pain. 6:30pm. Let me make you dinner. Read, read. Prepare, prepare. Grease burn. This accidentally turned into friend chicken. Salad. Sorry you had a hard day. 7:35pm. Enter. Am I early? Nope. Enter. Enter. Hi. Hi. Hi. How was your day? Where did y’all go? Did you take ballet? 7:50pm. We should probably start. What do you guys think? … … That’s not really resonating. Swoosh. Swivel. Swish. Glide. Skate. Bing. Bong. Boom. Misses after missed. Times up. Take it easy. 8:35pm. Let’s run over the task list. Sounds good. That goes there. Don’t forget speaker contracts. I’ll own that.Was it weird? He has my car. Click. 9:15pm. 7 emails? How is that possible? Be our family nanny. Does that mean you can quit another job? No. I’ll just cram it in. Should I shower? I need to read. There’s nothing sweet in this house! Meow, meow. It’s almost tomorrow.
It’s almost tomorrow.
